This Little Light Of Mine

I just remembered how I would constantly be singing this song when I was little... & how I wish I could go back and warn myself of everything that was to come and take my light away... I was once very innocent and naive about people and what they could do to me. I've been put down and pushed around and taken advantage of. I developed depression and anxiety. I became an angry and sad person. I was too afraid to stand up for myself, and was pressured into many things that I really didn't want to do: lying, cheating, smoking, drugs, alcohol, sex... I didn't know who I had become. I would look in the mirror and not know who I was. The horror of feeling so lost in your own skin, always leading to self-destruction, in more ways than one. The constant battle of debates in your head, fighting against your thoughts and what is reality. Trying to find something to give you hope, to keep you wanting to be alive, but only resorting back to the very things that made you feel so helpless in the first place. The cycle is hell. I honestly cannot tell you how I escaped the cycle, however. It seemed like such an impossible thing to do, living in that darkness and desperation. But the truth is.. my light was never taken away. It always remained inside of me. And each second, each minute, each day, each week I was able to stay away from the pressure people put on me, the stronger I became. The darkness lessened and my light shown closer to the surface. I used my light to block out the negative influences, while slowly discovering who the inner-me really was. It was a great struggle and took a long time, but eventually, it was clear who I was supposed to be. I am now able to stand up for myself and do the things I want to do, and refuse the things I don't. I realized that this is MY life and I only have one, so I am going to live it MY way. You can never give up, and you can never give in. You have your own light inside of you. You must keep searching and stay strong, and you too will find yourself. Embrace your light, and let it shine.

Taking The First Step

Peace takes much time and effort to reach, like any goal that we may set for ourselves. We must think about what we want to achieve, and what sort of bad habits we need to give up in the process. First, step back and take a look at yourself, your actions, and your thoughts. Look at the life that you have lived, up until now. Did any of your actions affect others in a negative way? How do you think they made others feel? How did you feel? Was the outcome really worth it? Think about these questions, and all the times that you may have prevented peace from existing. Think about what you could've done, or not done, to help lower the amount of hatred and negativity surrounding your daily life.


I believe we all need to do some self-analyzation and self-reform, because the problem in this world is not society as a whole, but rather each individual who has helped create it. Power and corruption. Greed and selfishness. This is what our world consists of: the love of things which can hurt others, only to benefit ourselves. We live in a sadistic society, and I find it to be downright disgusting. People inflict pain -mental and physical- on others to make themselves look better or stronger. But in the end, it is only making them weaker. They are only hiding behind what they don't have: respect for themselves. There is no peace in a sadistic world. No respect. No love. No progress. By hurting others, instead of trying to help them and improve our society, and ourselves, we are only stopping any progress from being made. We are bringing ourselves down, because we are not taking advantage of the opportunities available to move forward. We do have the ability to reach new goals, develop new ideas, and create a land where everyone can prosper. However, we will only remain at the same, poor level until we change how we treat each other.
~Respect others. Respect yourself. Save the world, because you can't just save yourself...

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